i am suffering from bipolar disorder ... Rapid-cycling bipolar disorder ... wif symptoms of Psychosis, panic disorder and Schizophrenia ... and a 100% Obsessive-compulsive disorder.

Symptoms of schizophrenia are divided into two groups: positive and negative. Positive symptoms refer to traits that are "added" to your personality and include a combination of disordered thinking (cognitive impairment) and psychotic symptoms (such as hallucinations). Negative symptoms are capabilities or aspects of your personality that are "lost" with schizophrenia (such as lack of emotion or expression) and usually develop first.

Negative symptoms include:
Inability to experience pleasure. This is a common symptom in schizophrenia and includes difficulty enjoying activities that once brought pleasure, such as playing golf or visiting with friends.
Lack of emotion. This can lead to few friendships or social contacts. Showing little facial expression, having poor eye contact, and slowed speech are characteristic.
Loss of motivation to succeed or accomplish goals. Job or school performance problems are common and usually due to an inability to complete tasks or goals.
Problems focusing or paying attention, difficulty processing information, confusion, and fragmented thoughts.

Positive symptoms include:
Hallucinations. These usually involve hearing voices, but they can involve all the senses—seeing, tasting, touching, hearing, or smelling something that is not there.
Delusions. These are firmly held but false beliefs. Some common experiences include thinking you are the President of the United States, or that you are being persecuted or chased by the CIA or by demons.
Disordered (confused) thinking and speech that does not make any sense. Examples include abruptly responding to questions, not being able to respond with enough information, or always giving a one-word reply to questions.
Bizarre or disorganized behavior. Usually the behavior involves being overly excited, angry, or unresponsive to other people. It may also include bizarre body movements, such as rocking back and forth or grimacing repeatedly.
Self-neglect, such as becoming isolated from other people, wearing dirty clothes, or neglecting living space until it becomes untidy or cluttered.
Inappropriate emotions, such as smiling when speaking of sad topics or laughing for no reason.

Mania may cause a person to:

Feel extremely happy or very irritable.
Have a very high opinion of him- or herself (inflated self-esteem).
Not need as much sleep as usual (may feel rested after 3 hours of sleep).
Talk more than usual.
Be more active than usual.
Have difficulty concentrating due to having too many thoughts at once (racing thoughts).
Be easily distracted by sights and sounds.
Act impulsively or do reckless things, such as go on shopping sprees, drive recklessly, get into foolish business ventures, or have frequent, indiscriminate, or unsafe sex.
Depression may cause a person to:

Feel sad or anxious for a significant time.
Feel hopeless or pessimistic.
Have slowed thoughts and speech due to low energy.
Have difficulty concentrating, remembering, and making decisions.
Have changes in eating and sleeping habits leading to too much or too little eating or sleeping.
Have decreased interest in usual activities, including sex.
Have suicidal thoughts.

Obsessive-compulsive disorder
Obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) is an anxiety disorder in which a person becomes trapped in a pattern of intrusive and unwanted thoughts and repeatedly performs tasks or rituals to get rid of the thoughts. Fear of contamination is one of the most common obsessions, while hand-washing and checking are the most common compulsions.

Obsessions are thoughts and worries that will not go away. These thoughts are usually irrational and cause anxiety. For instance, the person may constantly worry, “My hands are dirty. I will get a disease.” Obsessions usually lead to irrational behaviors (compulsions).
Compulsions are recurring behaviors that a person feels a strong urge to do in response to obsessive thoughts or worries. For example, a person who has an obsession with dirty hands and disease may wash his or her hands over and over again.
In a person with obsessive-compulsive disorder, attempts to control his or her obsessions and resist the urge to perform certain compulsive behaviors may cause extreme anxiety or panic attacks.

ok too lazy to find more... haha .... my problems ... u have to understand.... it has no cure ... i am sorry to find out tat ... sigh...

hmm ... almost thought i forgot the acc's password ... or i would have blogged earlier... crap... Who's is reading this ? i do not care now ... i am going to speak my mind... real piece of my mind... the part i am going to unleash soon ... the devils n demons ... the pain n suffering i had ... the fear... the anger ... the rage ... the madness in me ... the insane part of me... the part tat just wants to fuck the hell out of ppl ... make everyone afraid... afraid of me ... i ... know it is wrong ... i am pissed right now... pissed tat i will do it ... pissed tat i will hurt ppl ... pissed tat it is coming ... pissed tat it is coming at a wrong time... pissed ... truely pissed ... i apologise for wat i will do ... i am likely to be immoral ... i will become ... the embodiment of evil ... i am really afraid of wat i will do... bastard me ...